Live like you were dying.

Sometimes I wonder if I am living the life I should be. Where do you draw the line between taking responsibility for "being an adult" andthen simply wanting to be a kid. Maturity? What? When I think on the fact that I am 32 years old, I have a hard time believing that my life is 1/3 over.

While I have accomplished a lot in my life, I sacrificed a lot of experiences to get where I am today. Now, looking back, I wonder if it was worth it. I know it was worth it, but I wonder how my life would be different if I had done things differently. I find myself being torn, now more than ever, between "live each day like it's your last" and "be conservative and keep on the path you've been on"

Late last week a good friend told me his sister's cancer has come back. Two years ago she had a double mastectomya and her ovaries removed. Now, it's been found in her stomach and liver. My heart was greatly saddend by this news, and it really made the wheels in my head start turning.

Then, last night at Flow, the message was on Relationships and the work that is involved in making a relationship work. A large portion of it dealt with personal responsibility, and that is something I 100% believe in. Over the years I've realized that the reality we see in our day to day lives is created by our thoughts which lead to actions.

It's the self-perpetuating theory that if you think about it and talk about it long enough, whatever it is , it will become a reality. That is why I always think positive, and look at the positive in every situation. That's also why I'm nice to everyone, no matter what. Because, sometime later, you may need to count on that person. You never know.

I know I haven't lived an intensely exciting life, but it has been good, and I have had some really good times with family and friends. This afternoon, I made it a point to call several people whom I haven't spoken to in months. It was good to chat and catch up. We may not be perfect or have all the answers, but I've realized that living life, with others sharing in your experiences, is something I enjoy and it makes my life richer.

Hope you all have a great weekend, back to video work now!