month 2 of daddyhood.

Here we are two months into this adventure and I am quite pleased at my daddy progress.

I always wondered when I had kids how I would handle all the diaper changing and drooling and all that kind of stuff. It's really not too bad, when it's your own kid I guess. Last week we kept the nursery at church. I'm not so sure I'll be doing that again. I don't mind stepping out of my comfort zone, heck, I got married. lol But a full hour of multiple babies is a tad much.

I've been working so much lately that in the back of my mind I wonder if it is worth it. I mean, my intentions are noble, pay off the house since it is our last debt and do it in the next 2 or 3 years. That way, we can travel. When I was young my parents and I went to Hawaii every year. As soon as we get out of debt, that is something I want to resume with the family. But, not just travel to Hawaii, but all the cool places in America.

At the same time I am working to achieve all these lofty goals, I am missing time that I can never get back with Brayden. Grant it, he isn't doing much now, but I love holding him and carting him around when I am home from work. We have chats... he tells me about his day and I tell him about mine. We talk about music and politics, even though I am the one doing most of the talking and he responds with coo's.

He has really begun to smile a lot in the past couple weeks. It makes me very very happy inside to see my little buddy smile.

I need to start reading to him at night before he goes to bed. I wonder if Glenn Beck's book is a little too heavy for his age. Just kidding. We have some books that would probably be just right for him.

It's amazing to see how little ones change your lives. I find it odd planning vacations for "family" instead of 2 people. Room for 4 instead of a room for 2. It's different but good. Long gone are the days of going out and staying out all night. I've become a responsible, somewhat, father. It's just crazy that to think 3 years ago, none of this was even on the horizon.

I find I spend most of my day at the office wondering what Brayden is up to. You'd think with technology the way it is, we'd be able to hook up a video camera and I be able to not miss anything while at work. That would be cool.

Maybe if we switch to iphone's, that may be more possible with video messaging!